It’s Complicated

When Asha joined our office in Mumbai, she stood out immediately. She was warm, graceful, and had a smile that made everyone around her relax. It wasn’t long before she and I discovered we lived along the same bus route. Every morning and evening, we found ourselves side by side, talking about films, the chaos of Mumbai traffic, and dreams that drifted far beyond spreadsheets and deadlines.

I couldn’t help but notice that her friendliness felt a little more than casual. Sometimes her hand lingered when she passed me something. Sometimes her laughter came too easily at my words. For a man like me—quiet, cautious, and used to keeping to myself—it felt like a door opening where I hadn’t expected one.

When I took a vacation to Kerala, my heart was restless. The backwaters, the green paddy fields, the easy rhythm of home—all of it only reminded me of her. One night, unable to hold back, I wrote her a letter. It was simple, clumsy even, but it carried my truth: that I wished to marry her, that I saw in her a partner for life.

I waited for her reply. Days passed. She didn’t reply.

Back in Mumbai, I rushed to the office with a mix of hope and nervousness. But the moment I stepped in, I sensed something had changed. A few colleagues avoided my eyes. Others smirked; I couldn’t figure out why.

Later that afternoon, the truth spilled out in whispers and half-smiles: Asha had shown my letter to her friends. My private confession was now office gossip. The same bus rides that once carried the sweetness of possibility now felt heavy with cold stares and muffled laughter.

And then came the warning. One colleague, older and kinder than the rest, pulled me aside.

“You’re a good man,” he said quietly. “Think carefully. She’s been through a divorce. She isn’t… stable. Many have tried to get close, and it hasn’t ended well.”

The words struck like a stone. My mind spun—was their concern genuine, or just prejudice against her past? Was Asha’s silence cruelty, or pain she couldn’t voice?

In that moment, between the hum of ceiling fans and the weight of my co-worker’s advice, I realized my story with Asha had forked into uncertainty. My heart wanted to believe in her. My mind urged caution. And somewhere between the two, the bus rides home grew unbearably quiet.

I’m Mathew

Visual communication design professional.
Core Business: Corporate Identity Design.
Hobbies: Photography, Travel, Books & Film.


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